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"you want to feel good about yourself? blog about how miserable you are. according to researchers in taiwan, college students who blogged about their personal lives were happier than those who didn't, primarily because they felt more socially connected to a larger community. these feelings, of course, did not extend to the poor people that have to read your blog, who are tired of hearing about the latest cute thing your cat did."
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sometimes mosttimes prolly everytime i lay down at night and think about what i did all day i can't remember anything that happened and this frantic feeling swells up in me and i feel like i'm going crazy or just dying slowly. i don't think i've done anything productive in a year. tallahassee has been an okay place to live but everything is turning sour real fast mostly just in my brain but if i don't leave soon i don't think i'll ever stop feeling like this. i miss my friends far away. i miss my mom. i wanna go home just as long as home isn't here. haha i sound like a coldplay song or something. whatever this is serious: i'm outies.
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[24 Jan 2009|11:14pm] |
My father, for example,
who was young once
and blue-eyed,
returns
on the darkest of nights
to the porch and knocks
wildly at the door,
and if I answer
I must be prepared
for his waxy face,
for his lower lip
swollen with bitterness.
And so, for a long time,
I did not answer,
but slept fitfully
between his hours of rapping.
But finally there came the night
when I rose out of my sheets
and stumbled down the hall.
The door fell open
and I knew I was saved
and could bear him,
pathetic and hollow,
with even the least of his dreams
frozen inside him,
and the meanness gone.
And I greeted him and asked him
into the house,
and lit the lamp,
and looked into his blank eyes
in which at last
I saw what a child must love,
I saw what love might have done
had we loved in time.
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i realized today - only just now - that this town is my home and that i will miss it more than i ever imagined. this place and this house is where i feel most myself and leaving it is going to be harder than i ever expected it to be. in six months i don't have any fucking idea where my life will be headed but i know that i will be carrying on with tallahasse - all these hills and hearts - embedded inside me til i die.
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[28 Oct 2008|10:23pm] |
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tallahassee got cold and while putting on my coat for the first time since march i found a nyc mertocard and a chicago transit pass in the pocket. winter is sentimental and heartbreaking for so many reasons but i think this one is my favorite.
( IMU NE USA )
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| so much happiness |
[23 Sep 2008|12:02am] |
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bursting out of me; days like today the world is mine and i will share it in time.
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[18 Sep 2008|09:37pm] |
FLAP JACKS, MUFFIN TOP, PBR, JINKY, PERIOD STAINS & FRIENDSHIP BRACELETS;
nobody can capture my essence like salina.
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| i have a love in my life |
[25 Jun 2008|11:54pm] |
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its been a shitty few months but this lil face has pulled me through the worst of it. it doesn't even bother me anymore that i've become one of those creepy cat ladies. i got no monies no car and no job but i still got jinky brown.
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